🌴 Two Months in Florida… How Is That Even Real?! 🌴

How has it already been two months since I packed up my life, pointed my car south, and stepped into this wild Florida chapter? It honestly feels like I just got here… and at the same time like I’ve lived a lifetime in these past eight weeks.

It has been go, go, go from the moment I arrived. Between work, training, building Makes You Stronger and Trident, learning new roads, finding my rhythm in a new city, and soaking up every second of sunshine I can — there hasn’t been much time left for all the exploring I keep talking about. And there is so much to explore.

We had that random stretch of cold (Florida… explain yourself 😅), which slowed down my grand plans of springs, hiking, swimming in crystal-clear water, tanning, and long, slow, relaxed days outside. Right now it’s still a little too cold for me to fully commit to the water — but it’s officially on the list. I’ve been told over and over that I have to experience the springs, so maybe that becomes a summer adventure when someone comes to visit and we make a whole day of it.

Work is good — and getting better. I have clients (which feels amazing), and I genuinely love the girls I work with. That alone makes such a difference in my day-to-day life.

Most of my days right now are beautifully simple:
working
training
figuring out where I’m going 😂
lifting
tanning
being outside as much as humanly possible

And honestly? I asked for this.

The hardest part — if I’m being real — is starting over financially and being alone so much of the time. Not having that person to just go to the beach with. Someone to sit next to where you don’t even have to talk — you just exist together. It’s wild how deeply we, as humans, need connection. Hugs. Safety. Familiar energy. Someone who knows you.

That’s probably been the biggest initiation in all of this.

Gym life has been entertaining though. There are a ton of content creators where I lift, and apparently being “the new girl” means everyone wants workout footage of you 😆 I said yes to one trainer — because let’s be honest, I do love being in front of the camera, especially in the gym. He did an incredible job and he’s using it to grow his page, which I’m happy about. (His name is Paul Tirado on Instagram if you want to watch for it to be posted)

Do I personally feel the need to post daily workout videos or pay for content? Not even a little.
Did I have fun? Absolutely.

And then there are the moments that make me stop and realize:

This is exactly what I asked for.

The other morning I woke up, made my coffee, walked outside with Charlie, and just sat there — cool breeze, sun coming up, him wandering around the yard — and I had this overwhelming wave of gratitude.

This.
This life.
This simple moment.

For years I wanted to live somewhere I could be outside year-round. To start my mornings in the sun. To have my dog roaming while I drank my coffee in peace.

In my “perfect world” vision — it’s a bigger yard, fruit trees, another dog for Charlie, and my husband sitting next to me while we talk about life in the morning stillness.

And one day that will be a blog post update:
Life in Florida.
Dogs in the yard.
My man beside me.
Trident and Makes You Stronger thriving.
Teaching martial arts because I love it.
Traveling.
Beach days.
Space to breathe.

Right now?

This is the build phase.

And the internal work happening at the same time is on another level entirely.

Hermetic Kabbalah is the most incredible, confronting, transformative thing I have ever done — and also the hardest. It is not love-and-light surface work. It is:

the death of the old stories
the stripping of the masks
the dismantling of the negative ego
the collapse of illusion

It’s looking at every part of yourself you used to hide from and choosing — consciously — to know yourself anyway.

To actually live:

“Know thyself. Know God.”

And stepping into the obligation of a Senior Ritual Master at the same time?

There are days it feels like the self is being put in a blender — everything that isn’t real, everything that isn’t aligned with the Light, right in your face to be transformed.

You reach this strange space where the old version of you is gone and you’re left with:

Who am I without the story?
Without the masks?
Without the identity I’ve been performing?

Who am I in the image of God?

Thank God for the ocean — for grounding, for perspective, for reminding me to breathe.

And thank God for the lineage, the teachers, and the support team who have walked this path before me and can say,
“Yep — this part is intense. Keep going.”

Because I am.

Even on the hard days.
Especially on the hard days.

So here’s to two months in Florida —
to growth that isn’t always pretty,
to building a life in real time,
to sunshine, sweat, solitude, expansion, and becoming.

It’s wild.
It’s uncomfortable.
It’s beautiful.

And we’re just getting started. 🌊✨